Chasing Cars.

It's been shorter than I thought it was since I last posted.
But the days feel like years here.
And time hasn't been existing.

Good News:
I passed my Earth Science and Global Regents! :D
Both 87's.
Yay Mastery!
I totally could've done better,
But I'm not complaining.

Bad News:
I woke up at 7:30am today.
Fucking thunderstorm and down-pouring.
(Sick as a dog, still too.)
Fun-Fun.

I started reading Harry Potter again though.
I wanted to read the 6th book before the movie comes out so I'm not like:
"Lolwut happens before Dumbledore dies?"
And I was watching the 5th movie with my friend yesterday,
Along with the Musical. (lol it's amazing.)
So it's like a HP Party!

I cannot wait for the 6th movie.
Seriously, ugh,
I want it like burning. ;__;

And I wanna see Transformers2 too.
That looks awesome.

Aunt's getting married soon. :|
Gotta go dress shopping this weekend.
(I'm secretly excited. I get to get sundresses<3.)
Also since I agreed to go shopping,
Mommy's getting me some DVD's I've been wanting.
So yay!

I've been writing a lot more lately too.
Which makes me super happy. :3

So this summer's been okay.
I would like a little less sickness and humidity,
But whatevvss.

I wanna go back to sleep now,
So peace, loverlies.<3
♥

And People Wonder...

Why I don't tell them anything anymore.

Let's Just See Where This Takes Us, Shall We?

Tomorrow's the last day of school.
It really doesn't feel like it though.
(Not to me at least.)

Yeah, I still have Regents to take and all,
But it feels more like March than June.
Probably because it's been raining so much.
I'm not used to it raining in June.
More of, "Oh my god, turn on the a/c now before I shank you, bitch. >|"

Anyways,
I'm glad that it's summer vacation.
I can't wait to hang out with my friends,
Sleep past seven in the morning,
And turn sixteen.

This is a pretty short post.
My apologies, but I am a tad bit sleepy.
Peace, loves.

Pretty Much The Same.

Not feeling much better than the last post,
But I might as well get an update out there.

I got my period on Friday for the first time in like two months,
And ever since I have been in bitch mode the whole entire time.
Like seriously,
I don't think I've ever been this bad before.

I feel like total and utter shit,
I can't stop myself from talking insults or how I'm feeling,
And I really just have no motivation to do anything right now except sleep.

Regents are in like a week and a half.
I guess I can survive for a good fifteen more days until summer.
(Which I cannot wait for.)

I miss my best friend.
We haven't really hung out or actually had a conversation lasting longer than four minutes in a good while.
Yeah, I talk to her a bit in Spanish,
And we danced and had a great time at Jackie's party,
But we haven't really talked for weeks.
I've tried to make plans with her, but she's always like "Eh, maybe."
I understand she has work and Regents, but she has time for all of her other friends...
And then she'll go to me the next day or something and be like "Hey, my dad's wondering where you've been lately."
I guess I just don't know what to do with her anymore.

And I was talking to my other friend today about how I've been feeling lately,
And she just put everything into perspective for me.
It hurt to realize the truth.
I even had a panic attack right there in front of her, kinda freaking her out, lol.

Getting onto that subject of anxiety,
Still no therapist.
Last time I checked, Mom and Dad were still looking.
Hopefully I get one pretty soon though,
Because I feel like something bad's going to happen...
(I guess we'll see how it goes.)

Well.
I have homework to do.
Peace, loverlys. <3