Pretty Much The Same.

Not feeling much better than the last post,
But I might as well get an update out there.

I got my period on Friday for the first time in like two months,
And ever since I have been in bitch mode the whole entire time.
Like seriously,
I don't think I've ever been this bad before.

I feel like total and utter shit,
I can't stop myself from talking insults or how I'm feeling,
And I really just have no motivation to do anything right now except sleep.

Regents are in like a week and a half.
I guess I can survive for a good fifteen more days until summer.
(Which I cannot wait for.)

I miss my best friend.
We haven't really hung out or actually had a conversation lasting longer than four minutes in a good while.
Yeah, I talk to her a bit in Spanish,
And we danced and had a great time at Jackie's party,
But we haven't really talked for weeks.
I've tried to make plans with her, but she's always like "Eh, maybe."
I understand she has work and Regents, but she has time for all of her other friends...
And then she'll go to me the next day or something and be like "Hey, my dad's wondering where you've been lately."
I guess I just don't know what to do with her anymore.

And I was talking to my other friend today about how I've been feeling lately,
And she just put everything into perspective for me.
It hurt to realize the truth.
I even had a panic attack right there in front of her, kinda freaking her out, lol.

Getting onto that subject of anxiety,
Still no therapist.
Last time I checked, Mom and Dad were still looking.
Hopefully I get one pretty soon though,
Because I feel like something bad's going to happen...
(I guess we'll see how it goes.)

Well.
I have homework to do.
Peace, loverlys. <3